So after leaving you all in the dark about so much of my recent life (LONDON!!!), I will continue leaving you in the dark and make a quick post about a summer job.
My mom wants me to get a summer job. I am sort of indifferent. I would not love having a job, but I am not super against it. Last summer I would have said no because last summer I was hanging out with friends every day. Judging by recent times, it does not appear that that is going to happen again this summer. Instead, I do not know what I will be doing. So far the only 2 things I would say I am sure about (and i'm not even completely sure about then I just think I am doing them) 1.) The high school summer musical (DID I JUST COME UP WITH AN AWESOME TITLE FOR A NEW DISNEY MUSICAL OR WHAT?!?!) and 2.) Going to California.
So the thing about getting a job is, people are doing that now. I still don't know if I really want one or have time for one, but it seems like my mom is going to make me get one either way. Where though? In math ed and Jake were talking about bennets and I was like "oh I should try and get a job there" and they were both like NO which could have been a "We don't want you working at a place I might work" no or a "They don't have room" no. Either way, no bennets for james.
I doubt I will and I know these are kind of generic wants, but I would love to find a job where I either seem my friends a lot, or I know someone who works there. Sometime soon I will go job hunting in the port.
Wish me luck!
Song of the day - It All Makes Sense At The End - Molly Lewis
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1tjC0mYfcrg
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
Monday, April 6, 2009
Slight change since last post
I have decided it will be more interesting to just make this an "honest opinion" type thing. One of my friends did it a while ago, basically if you ask me I will tell you my honest opinion of you and also anything I feel like I have to say to you.
This is for anyone who wants to just know my impression of you or anything, so even if we are not good friends, and you want to know, then ask! So yeah! This should be interesting
The generic question will be "What do you honestly think of me" so if you send me an email (semajjelin@yahoo.com), message, or anything make that the subject so I will know what it is.
This is for anyone who wants to just know my impression of you or anything, so even if we are not good friends, and you want to know, then ask! So yeah! This should be interesting
The generic question will be "What do you honestly think of me" so if you send me an email (semajjelin@yahoo.com), message, or anything make that the subject so I will know what it is.
We need to talk
I need to talk with a lot of people. Unfortunately they don't all read this, but if you are reading this, there is a good chance you are one of the people I need to talk to. The thing is I don't want to just engage someone in a conversation because generally they are not going to be very good things. They will probably be things like, why have you been doing this, why do you dislike me now, what has changed sense *some time*.
The point of making this, was if you want to talk to me, like I said, there is like an 80% chance I will have something to say to you, and if you are sure you want to hear what I am feeling/have to say, then ask me because I will be willing to.
I hope this doesn't seem like a desperate grab for attention or something, I just feel like this is a good way to do this, to find out who wants to talk and who would rather not. So yeah, if you are feeling the same way too or are just wondering if I have anything to say to you, then talk to me, IM me, facebook me, comment me, or whatever, but I do think that good will come out of it.
I am so bad at expressing my feelings, so I don't know if you really understood that or not... but yeah..?!
The point of making this, was if you want to talk to me, like I said, there is like an 80% chance I will have something to say to you, and if you are sure you want to hear what I am feeling/have to say, then ask me because I will be willing to.
I hope this doesn't seem like a desperate grab for attention or something, I just feel like this is a good way to do this, to find out who wants to talk and who would rather not. So yeah, if you are feeling the same way too or are just wondering if I have anything to say to you, then talk to me, IM me, facebook me, comment me, or whatever, but I do think that good will come out of it.
I am so bad at expressing my feelings, so I don't know if you really understood that or not... but yeah..?!
Thursday, April 2, 2009
Playlist of the month - March, 2009
Well if you remember, a while ago I mentioned that I was starting a monthly playlist (http://theextremelyawesomeblog.blogspot.com/2009/03/results-to-poll.html, look about half way down), and I finished the first one for March, 2009. Here it is!
Scrubs Interns Theme Song - The Blanks
My Life Would Suck Without You - Kelly Clarkson
Golden Train - Justin Nozuka
Be Ok - Ingrid Michaelson
I Can't Stay - The Killers
Homecoming - Kanye West Feat. Chris Martin
You and I - Ingrid Michaelson
Oh Diogenes! - Original Broadway Cast "Boys From Syracuse"
Come With Me - Original Broadway Cast "Boys From Syracuse"
Finale - Original Broadway Cast "Boys From Syracuse"
Creep (Live) - Ingrid Michaelson
Twitter Song - Ingrid Michaelson
(I'm not sure if this is at all interesting to you, but wherturver). The first and last ones on there aren't exactly real songs, but I skillfully got them into my itunes library =D!
Well thats all for now, I have a lot to talk about but no free time, so expect a HUGE monster post soon where I will talk about the last two weeks (teh musicalz!)
Song of the day - ^^^^ I think the highlights are Golden Train, Homecoming, and anything Ingrid Michaelson
Scrubs Interns Theme Song - The Blanks
My Life Would Suck Without You - Kelly Clarkson
Golden Train - Justin Nozuka
Be Ok - Ingrid Michaelson
I Can't Stay - The Killers
Homecoming - Kanye West Feat. Chris Martin
You and I - Ingrid Michaelson
Oh Diogenes! - Original Broadway Cast "Boys From Syracuse"
Come With Me - Original Broadway Cast "Boys From Syracuse"
Finale - Original Broadway Cast "Boys From Syracuse"
Creep (Live) - Ingrid Michaelson
Twitter Song - Ingrid Michaelson
(I'm not sure if this is at all interesting to you, but wherturver). The first and last ones on there aren't exactly real songs, but I skillfully got them into my itunes library =D!
Well thats all for now, I have a lot to talk about but no free time, so expect a HUGE monster post soon where I will talk about the last two weeks (teh musicalz!)
Song of the day - ^^^^ I think the highlights are Golden Train, Homecoming, and anything Ingrid Michaelson
Thursday, March 26, 2009
What I'm Looking For
This is just a quick post, I'm just finishing up some homework, and the song "What I'm Looking For" came on my shuffle. I really love that song in so many ways. I especially love the lyrics, they always seem to speak and apply to me. Last year, they applied to me one way, and now this year I am finding new meaning in the lines that seemed out of place to me. Here it is (this will also be the song of the day):
What I'm Looking For - Brendan Benson
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N5WzRc3u5ac
If you usually don't watch/listen to the songs I recommend, listen to this one. It really is a good song. Really the whole thing applies to me, and I am sure a lot of you will stop reading here but I am going to post the lyrics and talk about them and me:
What I'm Looking For - Brendan Benson
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N5WzRc3u5ac
If you usually don't watch/listen to the songs I recommend, listen to this one. It really is a good song. Really the whole thing applies to me, and I am sure a lot of you will stop reading here but I am going to post the lyrics and talk about them and me:
Well I don't know what I'm looking for
But I know that I just want to look some more
And I won't be satisfied 'til there's nothing left that I haven't tried
For some people it's an easy choice
But for me there's a devil and an angel's voice
Well I don't know what I am looking for
But I know that I just wanna look some more -- Nothing to explain here, all just true
Well I don't know what I'm living for
But I know that I just wanna live some more -- I used to really feel strongly about this line, and then a little while ago I heard this song again and I didn't feel like I wanted to live some more (as in I just wanted to sleep and relax) but I am feeling that way again which is a good sign.
You hear it from strangers
And you hear it from friends
That love never dies
And love never ends -- Fine line, doesn't particularly apply to me but whatever
I don't want to argue
No, I don't want to fight
'Cause you're always wrong
And I'm always right -- I have never understood this line, maybe someday I will. I guess hes saying he thinks hes always right, which applies to me a lot.
Well I don't know what I'm living for
But I know that I just want to live some more
I used to be involved and I felt like a king
Now I've lost it all and i don't feel a thing -- So true right now
I may never grow up
I may never give in
And I blame this world that I live in -- Also true
I visit Hell on a daily basis
And I see the sadness in all your faces -- That seems more true as time has gone on, I don't really visit hell but I can be in a bad place sometimes and I feel like everyone else is too and that makes me sad
I've got friends who are married and their lives seem complete
And here I am still stumbling down a darkened street
A darkened street
And I act like a child
And I'm insecure
And I'm filled with doubt
And I'm immature
Sometimes it creeps up on me
And before I know it I'm lost at sea -- This verse is one of my all time favorite song verses. It just seems so true for me, everything there is true. I feel like other people have their lives so omuch more together, and I do all of that stuff.
But no matter how far I roam
I always find my way back home -- I never used to think this applied to me, but now I hope it does, it makes me feel optimistic that things are going to get better again, and I am currently "Lost at sea"
But I don't know what I've been waiting for
But I know that I don't wanna wait anymore -- Very true
*repeated chorus stuff*
Well I hope you enjoyed my love affair with that song, I am going to listen to it again and then finish my homework.
Musical opens tomorrow! =D
Monday, March 23, 2009
A wittle thing i've noticed about myself
I'm an optimist, I think, which I like.
What I mean is, when I'm in a bad situation I don't complain. I am just not really a complainer.
Well that is not really true. I do complain a lot, but it's more when I'm mad at people or they make decisions that are against what I thought was best, I will complain and talk about how it was a bad idea.
But what I'm trying to say is just that if I'm in a really crappy situation, I almost never complain. It is just because I don't see the use. All it is doing is pointing out what is wrong with what's going on, which to me doesn't make sense, it just makes you less happy. Because of this I have a low tolerance for pessimists or complainers, which is probably why I have been getting annoyed with certain people who's names I will not put here recently.
This reminds me of a semi-related thing, which is about Bugsy Malone, the show last year at the middle school. Sort of recently some people were talking about it and about how it was such a bad show, and I got kind of mad (in my head not out loud). In my opinion chorus members or tiny parts do not have the right to talk about a show being bad, as just a general thing. I feel like a lot of times they just only see the bad parts of a show and complain about them.
For Bugsy specifically, I thought we actually did a really good job. I mean the musical itself wasn't great, but a lot of people really liked it. The thing that sticks out in my mind most was a freshman (who would currently be a sophomore) said something like "Hey the show last night was really good. I wish we did stuff that good while I was there"
That sounds like a sincere feeling to me, and I guess I could be completely crazy but I really did think it was good. I mean in terms of leads, Trey was not great, but Aaron (Aron? Sp.) was fantastic, and I THINK I was pretty good. I mean I felt like I was doing well, and I know of at least one person who doesn't know me and thought I was good, so yeah. I mean again, I could be completely wrong, but I thought I did pretty well. And if 2/3 of the leads were good, in a show like that that pretty much means the show was good. So what was so bad about it?
That goes back to my idea of the people who had the small side parts shouldn't talk about it being a bad show when they really don't know that well and weren't a big part of it, and that also goes back to my realization that I am an optamistic non complainer.
Another thing, that is probably why I have never considered suicide or cutting. I mean there have been times when I thought about it, but it wasn't really thinking about it, it was thinking about considering doing it. I could never actually do anything like that to myself though, I just.. can't. I don't see why people do, and I never would. I mean I DO see why other people do, but I'm saying that kind of thought just doesn't occur to me. If I didn't already know about suicide or cutting, no thought even remotely like it would have ever crossed my mind.
I'm so hypocritical because I complain about my life so much on this blog and my other one, ha whatever. Recently I've been optimistic, and I am more towards that side than the negative side
Well i hope you enjoyed my ramblings, back to homework.
Song of the day - Viva La Vida - Coldplay
Me gusta mucho. That whole album is soo good
What I mean is, when I'm in a bad situation I don't complain. I am just not really a complainer.
Well that is not really true. I do complain a lot, but it's more when I'm mad at people or they make decisions that are against what I thought was best, I will complain and talk about how it was a bad idea.
But what I'm trying to say is just that if I'm in a really crappy situation, I almost never complain. It is just because I don't see the use. All it is doing is pointing out what is wrong with what's going on, which to me doesn't make sense, it just makes you less happy. Because of this I have a low tolerance for pessimists or complainers, which is probably why I have been getting annoyed with certain people who's names I will not put here recently.
This reminds me of a semi-related thing, which is about Bugsy Malone, the show last year at the middle school. Sort of recently some people were talking about it and about how it was such a bad show, and I got kind of mad (in my head not out loud). In my opinion chorus members or tiny parts do not have the right to talk about a show being bad, as just a general thing. I feel like a lot of times they just only see the bad parts of a show and complain about them.
For Bugsy specifically, I thought we actually did a really good job. I mean the musical itself wasn't great, but a lot of people really liked it. The thing that sticks out in my mind most was a freshman (who would currently be a sophomore) said something like "Hey the show last night was really good. I wish we did stuff that good while I was there"
That sounds like a sincere feeling to me, and I guess I could be completely crazy but I really did think it was good. I mean in terms of leads, Trey was not great, but Aaron (Aron? Sp.) was fantastic, and I THINK I was pretty good. I mean I felt like I was doing well, and I know of at least one person who doesn't know me and thought I was good, so yeah. I mean again, I could be completely wrong, but I thought I did pretty well. And if 2/3 of the leads were good, in a show like that that pretty much means the show was good. So what was so bad about it?
That goes back to my idea of the people who had the small side parts shouldn't talk about it being a bad show when they really don't know that well and weren't a big part of it, and that also goes back to my realization that I am an optamistic non complainer.
Another thing, that is probably why I have never considered suicide or cutting. I mean there have been times when I thought about it, but it wasn't really thinking about it, it was thinking about considering doing it. I could never actually do anything like that to myself though, I just.. can't. I don't see why people do, and I never would. I mean I DO see why other people do, but I'm saying that kind of thought just doesn't occur to me. If I didn't already know about suicide or cutting, no thought even remotely like it would have ever crossed my mind.
I'm so hypocritical because I complain about my life so much on this blog and my other one, ha whatever. Recently I've been optimistic, and I am more towards that side than the negative side
Well i hope you enjoyed my ramblings, back to homework.
Song of the day - Viva La Vida - Coldplay
Me gusta mucho. That whole album is soo good
Random Childhood Memory: Stealth
During Tae Kwon Do today, the combination of being at my old school and thinking about the musical (where I have to act stealth), I remembered a really funny thing I used to do.
When I had to go to the bathroom during lunch, the fastest route would be to go through the cafeteria. Now to make it more exciting, I would decide things like that I was a stealth ninja, or that the floor was lava, and I would press myself up against the blue wall. HERE IS A DIAGRAM TO EXPLAIN IT BETTER.
_____________ _ _______________________________ _ __
Bathroom _________________________________Entrance to Gym
(Ignore that bar I had to do it or blogspot would format it and get rid of the spaces)
So I would enter the Gym (the gym was also the cafeteria, I don't know if it is like that in all schools), and then press myself up against the wall facing the wall, arms spread wide also pushed against the wall, and slowly inch across. I would try and stand only on the very thing black rubber thing on the bottom that stuck out from the door.
As I did this, generally the lunch ladies would stare at me. They just stared. They probably talked afterwards.
One day, one said "What are you doing?". I think I responded with something similar to, "I'm being a secret agent" in a completely casual and understandable way. This didn't seem weird at all to me.
I can only imagine what the lunch ladies must have thought of me xD.
Song of the day - Ingrid Michaelson is amazing. I just got her album, I will do more specifics later, but really check her out. Actually here is one, check it out, it is the first song on her bliggity blog http://ingridmichaelson.tumblr.com/ it's about twitter.
Also the clip from Ellen is amazing, I almost cried
When I had to go to the bathroom during lunch, the fastest route would be to go through the cafeteria. Now to make it more exciting, I would decide things like that I was a stealth ninja, or that the floor was lava, and I would press myself up against the blue wall. HERE IS A DIAGRAM TO EXPLAIN IT BETTER.
_____________ _ _______________________________ _ __
Bathroom _________________________________Entrance to Gym
(Ignore that bar I had to do it or blogspot would format it and get rid of the spaces)
So I would enter the Gym (the gym was also the cafeteria, I don't know if it is like that in all schools), and then press myself up against the wall facing the wall, arms spread wide also pushed against the wall, and slowly inch across. I would try and stand only on the very thing black rubber thing on the bottom that stuck out from the door.
As I did this, generally the lunch ladies would stare at me. They just stared. They probably talked afterwards.
One day, one said "What are you doing?". I think I responded with something similar to, "I'm being a secret agent" in a completely casual and understandable way. This didn't seem weird at all to me.
I can only imagine what the lunch ladies must have thought of me xD.
Song of the day - Ingrid Michaelson is amazing. I just got her album, I will do more specifics later, but really check her out. Actually here is one, check it out, it is the first song on her bliggity blog http://ingridmichaelson.tumblr.com/ it's about twitter.
Also the clip from Ellen is amazing, I almost cried
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