A wittle thing i've noticed about myself

I'm an optimist, I think, which I like.

What I mean is, when I'm in a bad situation I don't complain. I am just not really a complainer.

Well that is not really true. I do complain a lot, but it's more when I'm mad at people or they make decisions that are against what I thought was best, I will complain and talk about how it was a bad idea.

But what I'm trying to say is just that if I'm in a really crappy situation, I almost never complain. It is just because I don't see the use. All it is doing is pointing out what is wrong with what's going on, which to me doesn't make sense, it just makes you less happy. Because of this I have a low tolerance for pessimists or complainers, which is probably why I have been getting annoyed with certain people who's names I will not put here recently.

This reminds me of a semi-related thing, which is about Bugsy Malone, the show last year at the middle school. Sort of recently some people were talking about it and about how it was such a bad show, and I got kind of mad (in my head not out loud). In my opinion chorus members or tiny parts do not have the right to talk about a show being bad, as just a general thing. I feel like a lot of times they just only see the bad parts of a show and complain about them.

For Bugsy specifically, I thought we actually did a really good job. I mean the musical itself wasn't great, but a lot of people really liked it. The thing that sticks out in my mind most was a freshman (who would currently be a sophomore) said something like "Hey the show last night was really good. I wish we did stuff that good while I was there"

That sounds like a sincere feeling to me, and I guess I could be completely crazy but I really did think it was good. I mean in terms of leads, Trey was not great, but Aaron (Aron? Sp.) was fantastic, and I THINK I was pretty good. I mean I felt like I was doing well, and I know of at least one person who doesn't know me and thought I was good, so yeah. I mean again, I could be completely wrong, but I thought I did pretty well. And if 2/3 of the leads were good, in a show like that that pretty much means the show was good. So what was so bad about it?

That goes back to my idea of the people who had the small side parts shouldn't talk about it being a bad show when they really don't know that well and weren't a big part of it, and that also goes back to my realization that I am an optamistic non complainer.

Another thing, that is probably why I have never considered suicide or cutting. I mean there have been times when I thought about it, but it wasn't really thinking about it, it was thinking about considering doing it. I could never actually do anything like that to myself though, I just.. can't. I don't see why people do, and I never would. I mean I DO see why other people do, but I'm saying that kind of thought just doesn't occur to me. If I didn't already know about suicide or cutting, no thought even remotely like it would have ever crossed my mind.

I'm so hypocritical because I complain about my life so much on this blog and my other one, ha whatever. Recently I've been optimistic, and I am more towards that side than the negative side

Well i hope you enjoyed my ramblings, back to homework.

Song of the day - Viva La Vida - Coldplay
Me gusta mucho. That whole album is soo good